Judah has been talking up a storm the last few days. Tons of new words, little phrases, lots of goodness. We'll have to catch him (he can be a bit camera shy) and post some good chatter.
I haven't written much. It's true. Where am I? I've spent a lot of time reflecting on the past year. I've spent a lot of time thinking about the future. I definitely look at life differently now than I did a year ago. I'm not as sensitive as I was a year ago- but care more about things I consider important. I have less patience for listening to ridiculousness. Or dealing with ridiculousness. I worry that I'm more serious. That I've lost my sense of humor. I'm a big mix of feeling content with my life, feeling in love with my two men, and feeling impatient with myself. I'm more sure than ever that I'm meant to do more than what I am doing. I'm also sure that I'm done dealing with people who harm, regardless of whether or not I care about them. I'm determined not to become cynical or let negativity in. Life is truly too short...and I'm too busy. My work really helps my spirit. It is so very fulfilling. I wish I could share with you some of the extraordinary individuals I work with. I'm grateful daily.
Our Jude is pure magic. He has so much light that I actually feel differently when he is in the room. Truthfully, I think most people do. I feel my heart just ache when he smiles. In a perfect way.
Now that it's just us, :) I can share a bit more. Perhaps? I'm not sure where that line is. Sharing too much? Not enough. It's tough, eh? Maybe that's why I just can't seem to put words down. Ok, truthfully I have no problem putting words down. I put them down in excess. It's actually hitting the "post" button that scares me. Which is a quality I don't like. This blog initially was just about Judah, but now most of you have gotten to know me a bit...and you've stuck around regardless :) Thank you for that! I'll try to hit the "post" button more often.