Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Randomness

Judah has been talking up a storm the last few days. Tons of new words, little phrases, lots of goodness. We'll have to catch him (he can be a bit camera shy) and post some good chatter.
I haven't written much. It's true. Where am I? I've spent a lot of time reflecting on the past year. I've spent a lot of time thinking about the future. I definitely look at life differently now than I did a year ago. I'm not as sensitive as I was a year ago- but care more about things I consider important. I have less patience for listening to ridiculousness. Or dealing with ridiculousness. I worry that I'm more serious. That I've lost my sense of humor. I'm a big mix of feeling content with my life, feeling in love with my two men, and feeling impatient with myself. I'm more sure than ever that I'm meant to do more than what I am doing. I'm also sure that I'm done dealing with people who harm, regardless of whether or not I care about them. I'm determined not to become cynical or let negativity in. Life is truly too short...and I'm too busy. My work really helps my spirit. It is so very fulfilling. I wish I could share with you some of the extraordinary individuals I work with. I'm grateful daily.
Our Jude is pure magic. He has so much light that I actually feel differently when he is in the room. Truthfully, I think most people do. I feel my heart just ache when he smiles. In a perfect way.
Now that it's just us, :) I can share a bit more. Perhaps? I'm not sure where that line is. Sharing too much? Not enough. It's tough, eh? Maybe that's why I just can't seem to put words down. Ok, truthfully I have no problem putting words down. I put them down in excess. It's actually hitting the "post" button that scares me. Which is a quality I don't like. This blog initially was just about Judah, but now most of you have gotten to know me a bit...and you've stuck around regardless :) Thank you for that! I'll try to hit the "post" button more often.

2 comments:

courtney rose said...

Dearest Danni-

Guess what I got the other day?! An incredible, BEAUTIFUL bead... sent from the woman who exposed me to the exact same highway OJ Simpson once made famous!!! WOO-HOO!!

I can't wait to put the necklace together to see it in all it's glory- all colors, all shapes, all sizes, each one sent with love and squeezed in next to each other.

The bead you chose- phew. I love it. The shape, the colors! The fact it was blessed with positive energy from you and Judah?! It really is gorgeous. And you know what else I love so much about it? Every time I look at it I will think of you and yours- and that will make my heart warm up and feel all good inside.

Thank you, dear Danni, thank you. I am honored to know you in this strange (yet fully connected) fashion! Know I will forever cherish your bead, your words. It truly means the world to me.

I can't wait to meet up again one day in the future- truly a celebration will be had!

Much love,
Your sister from afar,
Courtney

jen said...

My news feed has been lying to me this entire time. Normally if there is a new post, it shows it in my side bar. It shows your latest post as "I want to add you". I'm so glad I checked over here.
This is a great post. I can relate to a lot of it.

And even though I've never met Judah, I can tell that he is pure magic. That is a fantastic way to put it. I really look forward to hearing more from Danni, Tommy, and Judah!