Monday, August 22, 2011

First Day of School

Catching Aster take an extra peek of herself in the mirror; seeing her eyes twinkle with happiness at how she looked in her uniform.
Seeing my eyes fill with tears during the drive to school and discussing how they were going to make me feel better,
"I'm going to draw you a beautiful picture to make you feel better mommy" and
"I'm going to tell you about all the good food I eat for lunch to make you happy" (Yes, I do realize that them comforting ME is a pathetic parenting low- but, I'm still proud of how sweet they are).
Aster's prideful posture as she walked into her classroom.
Aster's eyes when she saw her name on her desk.
Aster telling me "Mommy, I have to tell you something" followed by a whispered, "I'm going to miss you today"
Judah running to hug his sister one last time and following it up with a big, exaggerated kiss on her cheek (not a high of the day for Aster).
Catching Aster doing an over her shoulder last look, followed by a recommitment to the proud posture.
Judah telling his teacher, "I've already given my parents hugs and kisses. I'm ready to play."
In response to my, "Have fun today!" Judah shrugging with confidence and saying matter-of-factly, "Of course I will."
Spying Judah run full speed onto the playground and hearing his bigger than life laugh/cheer/hoot boom.
Knowing that Judah would be ok.
My sweet girl getting her heart hurt, "I KNEW how to play mom. I knew the game. They didn't want to high five me. They were being bad. So sad I tell teacher, 'I don't feel better' so I can stop playing and just look."

Tuesday, August 9, 2011


We go to Mammoth every summer. It was Aster's first vacation. Judah and Aster loved fishing and hiking and playing. I feel so lucky to have both of my babies. Home. Safe. Happy.
Looking back at our transition (knowing very well that we're just at the beginning of it), I realize that Judah has had a much tougher time than I ever anticipated. My sparkling boy, the one that can entertain any room with his laugh. That one. Had a very, very hard time. He's so sensitive. I should have known.

Watching their relationship with each other evolve and change and mature, has been so beautiful. Although it's been tough stuff, I'm very grateful that they have each other.

My babies are such magical, sweet-hearted people. I know I've said it a billion times, but I'm lucky. During most of our vacation, I was just in awe. Here's a little look at some random moments during our vacation.

Such a different little girl than what the pictures showed almost exactly a year ago. It's been a year since we first saw that face...