Mother's Day began (prior to being commercialized with flowers, chocolate, and brunch) as a day for Mothers to advocate for peace and for mothers to speak out against the war (originally the civil war). There are parades and events to reclaim Mother's Day, as the root of the holiday is currently so pertinent. Today, I'm thinking about all of the mothers with sons overseas. I wish we all celebrated the holiday in the original/more meaningful way.
It feels so funny that now we celebrate by thanking people that are lucky enough to hold this title. To me it's like "Lottery Winner's Day", silly stuff... Don't get me wrong- I do enjoy being celebrated ... and there are so many inspiring mamas out there that I will be thinking of today!
The director of the adoption agency I worked with for our homestudy told me, "Mother's Day is very difficult for a lot of women." I know. Two years ago today I was having a miscarriage, one year ago today I was still paralyzed with fear that I might never be a mom (the adoption process is VERY emotionally tricky) - THAT was hard. That's when I needed a day. Those are some of the women that I'm thinking of today and I just wish I could give you/them all a hug and some reassurance that dreams of mommyhood can/will come true - and perhaps be that much more wonderful and every-moment-appreciated because of the struggle.
I wrote that on Mother's Day and never posted it. I'm not sure why, but I have a few ideas. I thought Mother's Day would be easy and fun this year. I really did. I thought that since I know I'm beyond blessed (I mean, have you met Jude? He is a way cooler than I ever could be. I'm just lucky he lets me hang with him) it would be just celebratory. But, I was heartbroken. Too sad for all the women out there that felt like I did. That struggle. So sad I just kind of felt like throwing up.